I just finished watching Anatomy of A Hate Crime: Matthew Shepard. After the movie ended, I was literally soaking my pillow crying. Although I myself haven't experienced ridicule for being gay (seeing how I'm not 100% out of the closet yet) I have felt that same level of hatred from others in talking about the subject. Even in my school LVA, a school where only 25% of the student population is completely straight, there are people so biased, so much of a bigot, that it sickens me. All these events are eating away at the little shell of innocence I have left. I dunno, but I feel that I was born into a family that didn't recognize the prejudice asians had to suffer. I was brought up in a world where everyone liked everyone else and prejudice was only something that happened to black people and even then there was hardly any left in this day and age. But then I grew up, and I began to notice that the world wasn't as kind as I thought it was. I was shocked to find out that asians were subjected to prejudice and hate crimes. Of course, my family was untouched, untainted by this ugly blood stain, right? Wrong again. My grandma, although she can cook... okay and she's great (for a grandma), had many prejudices against... basically anyone who wasn't filipino. I think, that about this time, I broke free from american pop culture and started my odyssey into finding my niche in this world.

Along with that movie, MTV is doing something which takes a lot of guts (and a lot of $$$) to do. They've more or less entered 18hrs of off-air time, reflecting on some of the thousands of people who were affected by hate crimes. Despite the commercial puppeteering and sly way of turning counter-culture and anti-pop into what it's speaking against (ex. Marilyn Manson), you have to respect MTV for doing that.

It's nearing midnight and I'm guessing that my parents will get home soon. Time to sign off for the night. People of the world at large, oyasumi nasai.

p.s. Major props to the actor who portrayed him so well in that movie. Dude, you're hot and one hell of a good actor.