3.28.2001
 
Today seems like one large haze. I can't remember any specifics of what has happened today, but I just know that they've happened. Yes, I'm being vague. I can't quite describe it, though...

My project partner in Geometry was rather distraught this morning. Her dog had died the night before. What makes it worse for her is that her last words to the dog were "Go lie down somewhere and don't disturb me again!" Of course, the dog did, and never did seem to wake up. She told me why she had a rather large bandage on her left hand, and her explanation was rather disturbing. She used that hand to swap at her dog, and now it "reaked of death." The razor-blade cut to her hand was suppose to symbolize her cutting off that hand which, no matter how hot the water or how many times she washed it, still had that particular scent. After that story was told, Sarah-who-sits-behind-us said "Dude, you're strange." What I'm wondering is, can someone really get so attached to a pet? I've never had one, so perhaps I couldn't understand her feelings... I guess it's just my general apathy. I've only met with something which I would mourn if he died, and even then that feeling has subsided over time. And I regard my parents with a sense of unappreciation... or what it seems to be often.

I yelled at my grandmother yesterday when she was being quite stubborn and started generalizing about people again. Initially, I just wanted the bitch to get out of my hair, but now that I've had time to reflect... I feel really guilty. But, no one apologizes in my family. That's how it works. And who am I to change that tacit law now?

I'm beginning to hate the days when I have my even period classes. Ceramics no longer holds the joy it did, what with everyone lacking in energy lately. I've also realized that I can't translate my expressions into clay as I could have done with just drawing or painting. Perhaps I should make some sort of architectural design which I can devote my time to. I need to distance myself from those who would chain me down.

Just finished unzipping the 20+ jpop videos I programmed to be downloaded last night. I'm officially a reborn fan of the Kinki Kids. Those guys are hot! ^_^;;

... Bad thing about reading the blog of a writer, when you ignore it for a couple of days, they post rather long entries which you feel like reading later. Blech.

I so do not feel like going to choir practice today. Sadly, I have a sort of a solo (again) so I have to. Damn.

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