Warning: emotional overload

Have I expressed how much I love the movie Simply Irresistable? Yes, this movie is the embodiment of the aspects of love. Nervous tension one moment wanes to calm waters then sweeping passion with a pace so fast, so irrelavant that asking why is already rhetorical. But... I digress.

Matt. Matt. Matt. The name just rolls off the tip of your tongue.

I know, it's stupid. I know it'll never work. I know I shouldn't be obsessing especially after the whole messy Eric situation, but I can't help myself.

Today. Outside. In the middle of a game of King's Corner, he whimpered. The most adorable sound in the world! Coupled with a slight, tender smile... ah. Why whimper? Cristin was teasing him about how well he was playing.

Later. Inside. While listening to Good Charlotte's "Seasons" on repeat. He was asleep. And I drew him. Drawing inspiration from a fanfic I read about Queer As Folk where Justin took pain-staking measures to draw Brian, I drew him. For a complete half hour I put charcoal on paper. And for that half hour I felt content.

Later. Inside. Talking in a group, Matt asked what's the best way to break up with his girlfriend. Elated.

Later. Inside. Listening to Happy Hardcore. Everyone was lying down using eachother as pillows. I was lying next to Matt, sharing Brit's stomach. Could feel his warmth. Could smell his cologne mixed with the scent of ivory soap. Could hear him whimpering again. Slightly.

Mmm... The violin concerto playing right now is very much needed. I need to calm down. Someone just threw away several pages of loose, perfumed parchment which contained twenty poems. Twenty poems, all recently discovered during my last room cleaning. Twenty poems never again to see the light of day.

... I don't feel like talking much right now. Except maybe to Matt.

Yes, Matt.