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://ABOUT
shyaku. now 17. INFJ. senior art major at LVA. likes other males. lives in las vegas. has eccentric tastes. complete twinkie. too much of a philosopher for his own good. misanthropic on bad days. forgiving on good days. is human.

://PROS
boys. italians. greeks. irish/scottish. Ewan McGregor. unusual movies with interesting plots. ALLO. video games with good stories and gameplay. cooking. art. Dali. Francis Bacon. Perks of Being a Wallflower. music. Rufus Wainwright. Phantom Planet. Ash. etc. piano. singing.

://CONS
DDR. cynical. perfectionist. slacker. elitist? philosopher. jilted romantic. selfish. asshole. hipster? male. human. PC user. slash fics. etc.

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- A Walk Inbetween - A Webcomic
- The Concept of Love
- I Learned to Dance

://LINKS/WE_BLOG
pylduck (Paul)
lacking in emotional content
basementLife (Andy1)
Wibblog (Andy2)
Hem and Heart (Steven)
I.R. (Sarah P.)
psionic.nu (Tim)
introverted.nu (A*Lyn)
el monkey (Nico)

://LINKS/WE_LJDJ
aesiraven (Tony)
livilla (Marcy)
KDLRN (Karen)
great_teacher_r (Jon)
lovekills (Emmy)
stupiddgurl (female Steve)
kairos_ai (Kitty/Adrienne)
xxcatastrophexx (Jyl)

://LINKS/DISTRACTION
fanfiction.net
XY.com
OutMinds
PlanetOut
NeilGaiman.com
ScottMcCloud.com
Comicality
NewGrounds.com
Art Renewal Center
Ewan Pics World
VintageSewing

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9.30.2001
  
I'm beginning to worry about what the people I know in real life will think when they read this...

You know what, fuck it.

I'm caught in a pendulum now. On one extreme I'm fucking obsessed with DJ, but the other side I'm coming back to my attraction with Matt (::the audience groans::). Naturally you'd expect this double infatuation to cancel eachother out, right? Wrong. Actually, they're both acting like magnets; I find myself swinging harder and harder from one side to the next.

The resurfacing of my whole Matt thing is particularly disorienting. It took me a lot of energy to forget about him that way, but I managed to finally do it. And when I set up defenses they stay up. Thing is... all it took was one extreme, mind blowing conversation for about 4 hours (really just 2 hours of subject matter, and the rest is small talk). Learned a lot of things about Matt I didn't know before and I feel guilty a bit; it feels like I didn't bare enough of myself compared to him. But I guess it's better that I not bitch to him my troubles. (::waves:: if you're reading this, hi Matt)

As for DJ (aka Danny)... I was meaning to call him on the phone sometime over this weekend, but plans prevented that. And I'm afraid that his parents would freak if a guy called asking for him; his recent coming out experience has left them fearing for his (supposedly) virgin ass. Felt like taking a walk 'round the neighborhood since he lives within half a block from me... but church pretty much cancelled that idea. (in the unlikely event that he's reading this... hiya!)

And now I'm just waiting till 9 so I can catch Ghost World finally.

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