For the sake of reminiscing (and the fact that I just re-discovered one of the few good jazz songs to pop up from Japan in recent times) here're the lyrics to "Thanatos (If I Can't Be Yours)" from N.G.E.:
Every time I talk with Matt it always ends up the same way.
Now it's time, I fear to tell
I've been holding it back so long
But something strange deep inside
Of me is happenin'
I feel unlike I've ever felt
And it's makin' me sad
That I may not be (what I think I am)
He mentions how he doesn't want to ruin a friendship
What of us, what do I say
Are we both from a different world
Cos every breath that I take, I breathe it for you
I couldn't face my life without you
And I'm so afraid, There's nothing to comfort us
What am I, if I can't be yours
By asking this girl out, and it's a dagger in me everytime
I don't sleep, don't feel a thing,
And my senses have all but gone
Can't even cry from the pain, can't shed a tear now
I realise
We're not the same
And it's makin' me sad
Cos we can't fulfil our dreams (in the life)
Because since he's bi there's always that other half
So I must, let us break free
I can never be what you need
If there was a way, through the hurt
Then I would find it
I'd take the blows, yes I would fight it
Cos this is he one, Impossible dream to live
What am I, if I can't be yours.
The possibilities I forgot to include in my chances w/ him
Speaking of singing, I was hyper for some unknown reason after confirmation class so I was singing "filipino opera."
And to drive the stake further that I'm in his situation
Basically it just consisted of singing "Sinong tatay mo?" and "Ikaw an tatay ako." (trans: "Whose your daddy?" and "You are my daddy") in my highest falsetto.
But in reverse, and I would risk the friendship
Sister eventually joined in at some point and damn we got abnoxiously loud!
well... maybe. I'm not quite sure...
Christy (via Andy) found this here page and read through a great deal of it.
and he said that me dragging him to the Winter Formal dance
She's still getting used to hearing me comment on attractive men (and yes I'm purposely using more PC language at this point).
was more of a joke to his friend than something serious
(Why am I? I have no effing clue)
that hurts... how bad I don't know
::waves to Christy:: hiya!
but it hurts none the less...
Watched this pr0n spoof of Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon with a nude kung-fu match using attacks like "Invincible Tongue" and "Oral Attack." Hehehehe....
I feel like the other half of Chuck and Buck
And while in confirmation class, I left the computer on to download stuff. Which means I finally got the last episode of QAF's first season. Still wanting to get the DVD set though... but who would buy it for me?
... minus the years of separation
Sis was looking for pics of DJ's and other stuff, so I let her look through the magazine clipping collection I have for purposes like school collages etc.
and the above song says it all just about
"Whenever I need models of hot men," she tells me later, "I can count on your collection here."
so help me?
Eh.