11.12.2001
 
I blame the following on my english teacher. Lately we've been doing a lot of "stream of consciousness" writing where you don't stop writing no matter what for two or three minutes. So, as an experiment I'm going to try a "stream of consciousness" typing session. Let's see how I ramble on for the next five minutes:

So what am I doing at 11:00pm at night? I'm sitting at the computer with all the lights on in the family room. the light behind me is casting its reflection on the screen so I have to move my head to shield it's light, but sometimes I move out of the way so I see it again and then I get annoyed yet again and have to move back to it. And at this moment my foot's asleep because I have it tucked under my leg while I rock side to side on the comfy swirlly chair I sit on at this moment. I don't really see why I'm up so late. well besides the whole sleeping pattern thing logic dictates that I should be sleeping at this time. afterall, I do have an audition to attend to after school tomorrow and I don't really feel up to it since I got so fucking nervous during the piano recital I had to do. hell, I haven't been to a single audition at this school 'sides the one to get in... and I have to dance for this particular one as well. the audition after the dance one will be on wednesday or thursday so either I skip choir practice (please) or I skip the pride alliance meeting (please no). Which is sad to mention since the P.A. is losing members fast. i think the innitial feel of "we're going to make a difference!" has died down now and people are starting to wonder exactly what the hell the club's really doing? So far we've only been speaking about ways to promote this fledgling club, and only once or twice has the question of what it all means has arisen. the only things that've been said are about what the club is trying to promote (acceptance of all differences with an empthasis on GLBTetc.), can anyone join, and the development of "safe zone" classrooms and such... which I have yet to see any posters up for. and it's kind of idiotic to be a homophobe at my school given the vast population of people who're out. which brings me to another thing I feel that I need to address. what the hell is T thinking? he got kicked out of P.A. because he dressed up in drag for the halloween dance (not like he did that last year) and he's taking his anger out on the club for not supporting him. first off, it was the administration not the club that kicked him out, and the whole matter had been more or less silenced before so I only got wind of it when I went to club the following week. and justin's leadership is waning a bit and will probably topple with a couple of pushes from travis' militia.

... Oops. That went on for about ten minutes instead of the five it was suppose to. Oh well. Interesting to note how I go from what I'm doing, my foot being asleep, the audition, to the concerns about P.A. And I'm pissed, the whole situation right now isn't allowing me to focus on my projects and schoolwork at hand. This feels almost like this time about a year ago...

Speaking of which, it's now been exactly one year that I've been writing here. Wow.

... nope, nothing too special to sing and dance about. I'm just tired so I shall go to bed.

But it's nice to think that I've been able to carry something along for more than a year that's not school motivated nor really structure based.

(and post #817 btw)

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