Nyargh. The server being down is making me slack a bit on my blogging.

First off, in the past day (Wednesday) I've had many disappointments.

Photos came out completely grey (hardly black/white contrast) but since it was due today, I couldn't do much to change that. Not to mention that the pictures of Matt look completely horrendous which I print them big... Next time, it's 100speed film for better quality. And I should have done more facial shots.

I mumbled/fumbled through my piece presentation during art, and ended up taking almost 20 minutes for my explanation (even made some other people fall asleep). Didn't feel good about myself at all... especially about getting nervous over such a small thing.

Afterschool they posted the cast list for Hello Dolly... and I wasn't on it. Bittersweet since I don't think I could make all the rehearsals, but I still wanted to perform.

And now I completely eff'd up my acrylic painting so I'll have to do the entire section over again... Not to mention that my mother with her semi-FOB english is trying to correct the english assignment/sonnet which I mistakingly left lying around.

Tomorrow half the family will be coming. I'll be locked up in my room listening to music and bidding them go away.

... Yes, half a week without a word has almost been unbarable. I slipped a large print of Matt from one of my negatives into my art folder, and was constantly showing it to different people asking their opinion about the "mystery boy"... that or bitch and moan to those who know the entire story.

I'm tired. I need sleep.

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Can someone get me the hell out of this place?