#900

Well, New Year's approaching. So, instead of the new layout I had planned, I'll begin with one of my resolutions: use my deceptive/imaginative creativity and deduce exactly what my life will be like.

This Year (2002):
First half I'll continue to struggle through mountains of homework as a prerequisite. Pen and ink assignments will find me tearing my hair out of my scalp. Printmaking won't fair me as well. With the new semester, work on this year's Language Fair for Japanese will begin in earnest. Seeing how most of my endeavors weren't thought out or planned with sufficient time nor care this year, I'll have to search for the poem I shall recite at this year's competition. Other than that, nothing much out of the ordinary for the rest of my Japanese II class. In English continued study into Elizabethan literature and 'tough love' from Ms. Miller. Photo will be spent studying for tests, chatting with Lauren, Mary, and Krista, as well as worrying whether negatives will turn out fine in the processing room. World History promises more amusing antics (and scoldings) for/from Claire, Niki, Leilani, Joey, Eric, Taylor, etc. Algebra II will remain a moderate challenge for the rest of the year, but I predict at some point that one of my classmates (*coughDominiccough*) will go insane from the teacher's use of hand puppets. I will be able to payback some of my sleepdebt during the remaining Chemistry classes while studying at home with my sis since the teacher is completely incompetent. As for Art... we'll see how I fare in Mrs. Michaels' class now shall we?

Outside of school, I'll continue to relish/abhor my still going single status. Matt's own bliss will still irk jealousy in me (as well as Jacob's) but I'll be able to control the greenest of outbursts. I'll probably say things that I don't mean and piss people off again, but try almost immediately to mend the tear I've created. Hopefully I'll be able to talk more with Rica, Leah, and all my other friends which I hardly have time to converse with often. My fingers will finally be able to dial some of my friends' phone numbers so I can actually talk to them. Without being a nuisance of course... or at least not mean to be. According to another online test I took, my resolution is to "seduce as many people as possible" so, hopefully, after an entire summer's worth of virtual starvation (read: diet and exercise) I'll look like all the other people. Is the price of beauty worth the loss of personality? Does one's appearance really affect personality in the first place? We shall see.

Sometime during Spring Break my citizenship should finally come through, which means that I'll be able to take my driver's license test. Come summertime I hope to take a job at Borders (preferably at the cafe) so that I earn some sort of income. Or perhaps work alongside Matt as an office hand at his mom's work location. But faced with a summer devoid of summerschool (unless I do decide to take that requisite computer course as opposed to testing out of it) I hope to be able to manage my energy more efficiently.

I think that I will get out of the house more often. Maybe even go down to Roma's more frequently than I am at the moment (which would be once) just to escape the sheer pompousity which is the Summerlin Area. Attend more parties, concerts, events, performances. Eventually go broke from all of my many outings, but hopefully it will be time well invested.

After Highschool:
By this time, if I haven't had at least one boyfriend I'll go insane... well, it may be too late for that. Still, I'm resolved to take some sort of initiative in that department.

To all my friends who finished school at that point: I will be emailing you incessantly. I do NOT want to lose touch with any of you. Even as I enter my college years.

Speaking of college, education at UNLV sounds like a waste of time and money, but with the Millenium Scholarship I'm halfway from earning it shouldn't be quite a problem. After exhausting that resource to obtain my bachelor's degree in architecture I plan to take a year or two at another college just to have a taste of something different. Maybe a year in SanFran's School of Arts studying directing and animation or attending the Boston School of Arts to further my studies. Or maybe some sort of IV League Architecture school. Nonetheless, I'll be busy with school.

Of course, during this time I'll still be partying. With moderation, of course. If plans settle out fine, during my years at UNLV I'll be sharing an apartment with one or two friends downtown just to get out of the house I'm confined in at the moment. How well that endeavor will be is uncertain...

Take roadtrips with friends. Maybe 'cross-country to visit all my friends who've up and left Las Vegas.

. . .

Actually, it's almost daunting and ominous; the future is about as clear as peering through solid steel. Far too many possibilities and decisions to make in just one sitting. Far too many outcomes for one to encounter. Far too many chances with equal wins and loses.

For now, I think it's best not to plan too far ahead. For now, do what I can to get into college, and worry about after college during college for now.

. . .

In other news, going to Mary O.'s New Year's party. First stopping by the celebrations at the Alba family for an hour or so before heading down that way, but the night promises to be fun.

Almost didn't happen though. And parents are still slightly reluctant to provide transportation.

(which is why I need a license badly)

But at least they trust me more so than some other parents I could mention.

. . .

I have a secret longing. But it's almost of the Lolita kind. So I will not say it.