Yes yes, I know I'm a fucking pendulum.
And again, thanks to Matt I'm learning how important friendships can be.
Although... I feel jilted. I always envisioned having extremely involving conversations with and only with my one true love... and I'm having them with one of my friends.
So I get the feeling of some sort of deep connection and the satisfaction one feels after a challenging and exhilarating conversation, but none of the affection and sex I thought would follow.
... No, I am not still hooked on Matt.
Afterall, once you get to know someone personally it's hard to think of them sexually.
I'm just focusing on my exploration of the need for friendship because I'm currently non-infatuated with anyone in particular.
And no, the person featured in the slew of erotic dreams I've been having doesn't count.
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