1.25.2002
 
So, am I glad that midterms are now officially over? Yes... and no. I didn't get to talk to Zach like I had planned. Sure, asked him a question (which Marcy answered instead) but that was about it. At least the chemistry test was far easier than I had anticipated. Leave it to me to forget never to over-estimate my teacher.

As for art... again, easy. Patryckja scared me a bit when she couldn't find the notes I lent her, but eventually she did and all was well again. Treat gave me a lemon cookie which she said tasted awful... I thought it was good. Gave me a headache, but it was still good none-the-less.

While waiting for dad to swing 'round, Jyl, sis, and I had a discussion on the degrading value of fellatio when (speak of the devil) Tyler comes 'round. Gave him the picture I drew for him (which was followed by a hard hug) and he was off. Afterwards I noticed that the sweater I was wearing didn't completely match the buttoned shirt onto, so I took off the shirt... sh'up, I know I'm fashion conscious.

Yesterday I had an extreme moment of melancholy and fell asleep for 10 hours listening to Something Corporate's piano ballad: "Konstantine"

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this is easy

then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine

konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you? (x7)
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine


The song's effing 10 minutes long. I love it. Like most others who've heard the song, the first hearing left us bawling or glistening at the eye. I think I shall listen to it again now...

Oh, and party at Sarah's. Matt called saying he had a dilemma 'bout which party to go to. As usual, he ignored all the subtle hints I left until I blatantly told him to go to Sarah's instead of Heather's. Yargh.

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