F: I have no hope for the future.
E: No hope?! Then how do you get up in the morning?
F: I get up knowing that today something might change and make everything better.
I've reached a point where I need to make a decision. And I have. So, instead of killing myself quietly by the lake thingy by my house, I've decided that I won't eat today.
That will make me feel better than I do at the moment.
Which is surprisingly good since I just finished The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Chbosky. It scared me how similar a lot of the characters are to my friends.
So today I'll load myself with history homework and my airbrushed self portrait and not think about it being sister's birthday and all the food with noodles (long noodles=long life, my grandma believes).
I've decided to go walking at midnight with a book in hand more often.
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