Here in the dark, I stand before you
Knowing this is my chance to show you my heart
This is the start, This is the start
I have so much to say and I'm hopin'
That your arms are open
Don't turn away, I want you near me
But you have to hear me
Here's where I stand, Here's who I am
Love me, but don't tell me who I have to be
Here's who I am, I'm what you see
You said I had to change and I was tryin'
But my heart was lyin'
I'm not that child any longer
I am stronger
Here's where I stand, Here's who I am
Help me to move on but please don't tell me how
I'm on my way, I'm movin' now
In this life we've come so far
But we're only who we are
With the courage of love
To show us the way
We've got the power to stand up and say
Here's where I stand, Here's where I am
Stand up and be counted, I'm counting on you
If you're with me, We'll make it through
Here's where I stand, Here's who I am
Love me, love me, love me and we'll make it through
Here's where I stand
Baby, baby, baby I'm counting on you
Here's where I stand
Love me, love me, love me and we'll make it through
I'm counting, I'm counting
I'm counting, I'm counting on you
from IFCFilms.com.
Yep, another one of those nights. The ones where I tend to get too personal with the things that I say... and I say screw it.
It seems that everyother time I go after someone, I end up befriending and (quickly) find myself giving them advice to pursue the people that they're crushing on. Yes, boy, twist that knife just a little bit more. And don't forget to rub lemon juice and salt generously on the blade and wound.
It's enough to make anyone feel like a Mr. Cellophane.
What a lot of people don't know about me (and feel lucky if you're still reading this because somewhere in the near future I'll probably delete this bit) is that despite my ambitions, I'm a very submissive person... and not in the way that can be readily taken advantage of.
I doubt that most people's fantasies consist of sleeping at the foot of someone's bed... but I do. I want to be someone's catamite. (taking applications for the position of catamite master... NOW)
Yeah, so I held back on all the things I've been thinking about. If you really want to hear the whole story, you'll have to get me drunk sometime. Or feeling really positive. Those're the only times I willingly dispense information. Sorry.
In other news, IM'd Matt (who's currently at the summer debate-camp at Stanford) but his roommate was the one that was on instead. Had a short conversation with him (where he complimented my nihongo and we discussed the completely unlikely event of research being exciting... unless it's to research something that would get one arrested) and it was rather pleasant. Next time I catch him online, I'll have to ask for his own screenname.
I'll write more later (in a different post) since my computer seems to have the plague at the moment.